Writing Writing Writing
I just got kicked out of my writing group. I am mad sad.
They weren’t unjustified in kicking me out. I’ve missed the last three meetings due to random annoying circumstances (the most recent one being yesterday’s debacle — and I had to make up a fake excuse since I never told them I have kids because it was a group for queer women and it’s just too much of a hassle to explain my whole crazy story) and so it looked to them like I’m not committed even though I actually was.
I was looking forward to being part of a group that might actually inspire me to write. Of course, thanks to my blog, I’m writing all the time, but getting from blog entries to potentially-publishable essays, while seeming like it shouldn’t be that big of a step, is apparently insurmountable for me. I hoped that being forced to think about it, being forced to take even baby steps in that direction so I wouldn’t look like a big lazy non-writer to the group, might actually inspire results.
I was thinking of starting a group for women who want to read Your Money or Your Life (one of my resolutions for the new year is to stop being so stupid about money), but maybe I should start a writing group instead. I started one for mothers a while back but it died a pretty quick death when I made the mistake of being passive about leading the group. I don’t like to lead, or rather, I don’t like to feel like I’m forcing my decisions on other people, but each group I’m a part of gives me a better sense of how I might “lead” a group without actually having to lead it.
I don’t know. The final of my resolutions for the new year is to keep central to my life processes that will inspire me to learn and grow and create and so I feel that this hole created by the loss of this writing group needs to be filled with something, and the sooner the better.
January 10th, 2008 at 8:34 pm
i wish we lived in the same place so i could join your writing and/or reading group….that would be lovely. is there a way to do this online?